GRATITUDE… It’s like the peanut butter to my jelly. Like the peaches to my cobbler crust. I LOOOOOOOVE being in my gratitude space. For me it’s deeper than just simply saying thank you for something. It’s deeper than anything I can write about. When I take those special moments to be in that space with the divine, I feel electric, on a HIGHER frequency or vibration. It literally feels like pure BLISS for me. It makes my soul feel WARM and COZY. My heart smiles.
Even as I write this post, that BEAUTIFUL, developing feeling has invaded my chest and is spreading. Total LOVE. If I had to make it, that might be the word.
HOW DO I USE GRATITUDE?
It depends on where I’m at and what I feel like doing. Some days I simply journal and write down as many things as I can think of. Other days I might sing AFFIRMATIONS while I walk through the house. I might have a fire ceremony. I might simply sit still and let the feelings just take over for a moment. Whatever feels right in the moment, that’s what I do.
Sometimes I ask friends to participate. But to be honest, that’s never lasted long, lol. I was inspired last year to challenge myself and do gratitude post for the whole year. I missed a day here or there due to life, however I’m quite proud to say that I did keep it up for the whole year. I asked some people to do it with me, I think some lasted a week or 2. LOL
Honestly I wasn’t even mad, it actually strengthened my resolve to dive deeper and be more focused on gratitude in my own self. It’s PERSONAL for me, it’s like part of the air I breathe. Like warm vanilla cookies scenting the air. Can you feel me on that?
To be completely real and transparent for a moment, when I just completely let go and get all the way in my gratitude space, it’s almost better than sex. I SAID ALMOST, LOL!! But for real though, it makes my skin tingle, makes my heart beat faster, inspires my lungs to breathe deeper and just sings a sweet song to my soul.
What’s my passion? Interesting question… and I have so many answers, lol!
However I’ll share with you my most favorite answers and those that share a little more insight into me.
First and foremost, my greatest passion is to heal me so that I can help others heal themselves. In my own personal journey of self and life, I have gained the understanding of part of why I’m here on this earth. I’m here to help share light, love, compassion and forgiveness. I’m here to help inspire change. I am here, more than anything, to simply encourage and inspire the people I connect with and come into contact with. Whether I’m at a gas station, grocery store or in the park, random people will strike up conversation with me. I wont lie, it used to bug the hell out of me, lol. I used to really some kind of way, people would just start talking and sharing their deepest stuff with me. As I grew, learned and begin to better understand my own spiritual journey and to understand some of the guidance on why I’m here, I started to embrace the strangers coming up to me. I began to look for it, and now I’m so used to it, that I feel strange when it doesn’t happen. LOL! I’ve embraced the understanding that healing is a life long journey, there’s always something we can learn, let go of or better embrace and understand. So, I’ve always got something beautiful lesson or tip I can share. The more I grow, the more I learn, and I continue to pass it on.
I feel like I share so much of myself when I write and do live videos.Yet, there’s still so much of me that I am continuing to discover and so the journey continues. Healing myself to heal others. I share my transparent self, small pieces into the window of my soul, so that others can be inspired and encouraged. To recognize that you are not alone, we’ve all been through shit. We’ve all got skeletons and things we wish people didn’t know and we’ve all got amazing things we want to show from the rooftop and tell the whole world. This is just a quick blog article to share a little bit more of me with you. 🙂
I am actually thankful for writing this blog article today. It was prompted by a challenge I decided to participate in, #i2u created by Brandie Peters, to get more consistent in adding content to this blog and sharing even more value and goodness via my writing. 🙂 And I think it’s time for me to write some of my vision publicly and give you more of a glimpse into me as a person and spirit. So here it goes!
So…what is my vision for the future..? I’ll share a bit about it personally and professionally.
I never thought my vision of my business and professional journey would include motherhood. However, I see myself as a mother. This wasn’t always the case. I’ve struggled with it for many years, wondering if due to my own fucked up childhood, I could actually be a decent parent. After working on myself for many a year, lol, I can honestly say I think I’ll make a damn good mama! That being said, it hasn’t been easy. Family fertility issues coupled with my own fertility issues to date have made it a heartbreaking journey. One filled with tears, heartache, loss and plenty of other emotions (another blog for another time). So first and foremost, because this is a true and honest desire of my heart, I am committing myself to doing the work both physically, emotionally and spiritually to create a space for me to welcome motherhood and children into my life. Here, revealed in this writing, is the secret I have held inside for so long and I am ready to let that shit go!!! I was AFRAID to be a mother. I felt INADEQUATE. Each time I suffered a loss, it reinforced to me that maybe I didn’t DESERVE it. I felt CRAZY… because the experiences weren’t lining up with the visions and dreams I’ve had over the years. So as I write this blog, I give myself space and permission to RELEASE all of the crap and bull that I held onto internally that created such a negative space and prevented me from welcoming motherhood. I release the family and generational shit. I release the old hurts and pains.I release the memories of loss that swirl through my head. I release all the crappy comments people said to me, trying to make me feel better, but really pissing me off. I release the old experiences and ideas that made me feel I couldn’t be a good mother or didn’t deserve to be one. And I say it aloud as I write this… I will do the work and open myself to new levels of healing and energy to allow motherhood to embrace me in it’s sweet arms.
Today I’m going to share with you part of the journey that led to me deciding to own my own badass and then creating a program to help others do it…
Have you ever gotten to a point in your life that you literally got tired of being you..? Now, that may sound crazy, but I mean it. I literally reached a point where I was tired of looking in the mirror and seeing myself. I mean here I was with a master’s degree, a certified life coach, years in health and wellness, trained in ministry, and I was suffering. I felt BROKEN, I felt LOST, I felt like a FRAUD. I was doing everything I thought I was supposed to do. I was helping people, helping them to make positive changes in their own lives and have tremendous results. Yet, no matter how many strides I made, I kept finding myself lost in what seemed like a never ending tirade of relationship blowups, family drama, phony friends, etc, etc, etc… Can you say sick and tired of being sick and tired of being SICK AND TIRED!
So I decided to dive deep, to go for broke! I had already given away most of my physical possessions after a purge I’d been doing over a 4 year period of time. Both out of necessity and out of following the guidance I felt I was getting spiritually. I literally woke up one day in July 2008 and God said, “Give it all away”. I didn’t understand at first, but over time I realized that my whole life was built on everyone else, their opinions,their approval. Even down to the furniture I had bought and the clothes I wore. So I started a process of my own personal release, and starting giving everything away. In October 2012, I decided I needed to start completely over…somewhere I didn’t know anyone. Somewhere that held no hurtful memories or people I didn’t want to run into. Somewhere I could be quiet and work on me.
Owning your voice, acknowledging your worth and living a life that you are proud of. That’s part of my definition of being authentic, which is how you celebrate your worth. And that’s what I want to talk about today.
More and more people share with me, the struggle they have with standing up for themselves. Whether it be with a family member, a neighbor, a co-worker, even a spouse or child… it can be overwhelming, and yes, even scary, to stand up and speak our truth.
Why does it feel so huge and unthinkable..?
Somewhere along the way, someone(s) made you feel as if your voice was unimportant. Someone told you, your truth “didn’t matter”, “you talk too much” or that you just needed to “be quiet”. I can relate.
Growing up, I remember a cousin of mine, telling me “You sure do talk a lot”. I don’t remember exactly how old I was, maybe around 7 or 8. But she was an older cousin and I looked up to her at the time. Even though she probably meant no harm, I was being a Chatty Kathy child who was interrupting her and her friends, and those words tore through my heart. I felt embarrassed, stupid, and I felt as If what I had to say didn’t matter.
I admit it, as awesome as I am – yes, I’m pretty awesome – I still have moments where I want to flip someone the bird or act ugly. I know you probably weren’t expecting me to say that, but let’s just get real for a moment. No one is perfect all the time.
That being said, recently I’ve had my fill of being all nice, nice and people taking it for granted. I mean really!! Who wants to hold a door open for someone who refuses to open their mouth and walks in behind you looking like a prune, mouth pursed up and frowning? I mean, would it actually kill them to say “Thank you?” Well, it might. LOL Some people wouldn’t know kindness if it walked up and bit them on the nose.
Or, how about the person who goes to turn down an aisle at the same time as you and gives you the stink eye instead of saying “Thank you” when you motion for them to go first? Yup, I’m pretty sure some of you know exactly what I’m talking about.
The thing is, it doesn’t really matter. I was feeling like a bratty kid. I wanted to start being as ugly to people as they were to me. Yet the little innocent voice inside me keeps speaking up and reminding me: “It’s not about them. It’s all about you.” Sharing kindness, while it does benefit the person who receives it, is first and foremost for you. It’s a beautiful, sweet and heartwarming experience that resonates inward and then overflows outward.
So even though you probably thought I was going to tell you to kick the next person who’s ugly to you in the shin, I’m not. I’m reminding you to stand up and keep sharing your light with the world. It’s needed!
Originally written for and featured on Kind Over Matter blog:
Learn to laugh, even when things aren’t cooperating! I decided to take a selfie, and the wind decided to blow at the same time, lol.
I laughed, and even though my face is covered, you can still see my smile. I love this picture because it reminds me, no matter what may happen, we always have a choice in how we respond. I chose to enjoy the moment!
So today, take a look around and ask yourself, where can you shift your perspective and choose to be happy, thankful, to feel good? How can you choose to celebrate the moment and enjoy life as much as you can?
Yes, life gets in your face sometimes and yes, sometimes it really sucks. Yet, even when the shit hits the fan, you’ve always got a choice.
A choice to love, live, and thrive. A choice to smell the roses. A choice to bounce back and level up. It’s all about choice. It’s all about you!
The day before I took this picture, not even 24 hours before, I was crying my heart out. I felt tired and overwhelmed. I felt heavy and emotionally drained. I was angry at circumstances that were happening. I was pissed off at people. I mean, let me be completely real… I was having a fucking fit! I literally cried myself to sleep from emotional exhaustion.
So I gave in to it. I didn’t give up, I just chose to allow myself grace, to feel what I needed to feel. To simply be human. Then, when that moment passed, I chose to honor myself by enjoying the new moment.
A new day, new hour, new minute, new second. I chose to trust that even though everything wasn’t fixed or perfect, I could still enjoy the new moment. I could still choose joy, to thrive, to celebrate me and own my worth.
So what’s my point..?
No matter what crap life may be throwing at you right now, no matter how bad it looks and may feel, you’ve always got a choice. And how you choose to respond, helps to determine how things continue to play out. I was smiling in this picture, because I chose to. And nope, everything still isn’t perfect. However, I’m still smiling and things are getting better.
What’s your choice?
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